If you are new to this blog you have no idea why I am so relieved to be done with school. I never thought I would make it this far. School has never been easy for me {EVER} especially high school. When I was diagnosed with P.O.T.S I didn't think it would effect me at all. Well three months later I found out how incredibly wrong I was. Luckily I have a loving family that has been there for me every step of the way. I am so blessed to have the family that I have been given.
High school started out pretty good and then into my second quarter I got sick and that's when things went downhill....fast. I ended up being put on half-day home/hospital. My family, cardiologist, and I decided to do this because I was missing so much school. I feel behind and couldn't keep up with the missing work and the current work. For those of you who don't know what half-day home/hospital is I will explain it to you form what I experienced. I went to school for only half of the time. Meaning I went to the last two periods of the day. I went to the last two because mornings are really hard on those of us who have P.O.T.S. Then once a week a teacher would come to my house and give me the lessons from the classes that I had in the morning. Sounds easy right?{wrong} The first teacher I had would just give me the work and leave. It was really difficult and my mom fought for me and got me a new teacher, whom I love. The first teacher I had ended up failing me for no reason for her health class and I ended up doing a make-up credit for that class.
It was really hard having to pull myself away from my friends and the experience of high school. I ended up being isolated my first year of high school. I lost a lot of friends that I thought that cared for me. My closest friends were all seniors and they all watched over me when I was around. It was really nice of them and I will be forever grateful to them. They made that year a little better. My family and I had a really hard year, but thankfully my siblings and I have the most amazing parents and they were the glue that held us together. Especially our mom, if you know my mom you know what I mean when I say she is a fierce fighter. If it weren't for here I wouldn't have gotten through school. She was my voice for years and years.
Last year was a little better, but still hard. Most of the struggles I faced were my fault. I caused myself to be miserable. I learned a lot of lessons the hard way. Take my advice....LISTEN TO YOUR PARENTS!!! They know what they are talking about. I know it's hard because you want to learn things and stuff but make your life easier and just listen. It's a lot better than having to do the walk of shame and say "you were right, I should have listened." Pride is a foolish thing to have too much of. Put it away and be humble.
This year, after much struggle form the previous years, I have been able to advocate for myself. I used to make my mom speak for me but after awhile I finally woke up {figuratively speaking} and saw how much extra stress it was putting on my family. This year has been really good... up until now. If you have been a senior you know how I feel right now. Like the king of the world, hot stuff, etc. It goes to your head... and then you get attitude and it ends badly. I am learning form my mistakes.
I would like to publicly apologize to anyone who I've treated poorly. No one deserves it and I am ashamed that I let my pride get to me. Sometimes I don't think things through and my emotions take over my whole bed. It's part of the illness{not being able to control your emotions} and I do my best to try and not let that happen. I hope that those of you that have been effected by my rudeness and disrespect will forgive me. I wouldn't be able to do the things I've done these few years without your support.
High school is a hard thing to go through. If you add an illness {of any kind} on top of that you are putting that person through what may be their toughest struggle to overcome in their lifetime. These people need support from friends and family. Without that it's hard to keep and stay strong. I know if I didn't have my mom and dad, and their life struggles, as an example to me I know I wouldn't be as strong as I am. Even though school was really rough and I had my ups and downs it was a good learning experience to have and I am grateful to have gone and overcome it.
For all of those who are reading this..... focus on the good things. If you do that and have a positive goal than you can accomplish anything. Stay positive and always look at the bright side of things. Life lesson: Stay positive, learn from mistakes, and be respectful to those who are there for you...no matter what.
